Mind Melding? Dream Delving?

I used to be able to connect with him even when he wasn't around. I could sense when there was trouble..feel the unrest of his dreams...predict the phone calls and finish the sentences,,.. used to be able to. I haven't tried in quite some time,,not really sure I want to know what he's thinking or dreaming. More than likely it would hurt. I think I caught a glimpse last night in my own dream. A strong pull mentally. More than a tug,,almost a yank. Was it my brain or his? Very prayerlike,,almost a mantra. He's trying very very hard to forget me. To forget us. To do the right thing. Intense concentration. Minute by minute effort. My voice right now would rattle him. I won't call. I felt the pain. Hell I feel it every day but this time it was his pain and that I can't bear. Does he know how much love it took to let him leave without a fight? Does he know or even care the price this heart paid? And that I would give it all again and again if it would make things easier for him? Does he know?