Existing

I haven't heard from him. I don't know that I ever will. I could call him I suppose. Nothing stopping me except pride, fear,,and a pretty good understanding of his brain. If he wanted to talk,,he would call. If he had something he wanted to say he would say it. If he wanted to see me right now,,he would find a way. My brain has spun all of the events,,well the version I know of the events,,a thousand different ways and it always comes out the same. If he wanted to communicate. He would. I can guess and postulate and predict and wonder,,it changes nothing. I'm here. He's out there somewhere. I haven't seen his name in the obituaries. I assume he is alive. I pray he is well.